who am i to decide which creation is better than the other?pain drives me to shun that which caused it,to preference that which might have avoided or alleviated it.and yet, the pain itself and all that follows is birthed from the same material of all that is universal.the arising and passing away of thisis from... Continue Reading →
an unknown life
sometimes we think that it will be this future point in time,that deserves all of our undivided attention.and try as we might, to consider all of the possibilities of what might happen then,we mostly cannot dream up the fixings of that moment.anticipating the convergence of energy, of something that feels like it might karmically determine... Continue Reading →
river of tears
maybe when the water runs out,we will weep so many tears that the rivers will fill again.maybe after the last tree falls,our hearts will break, we’ll come down to our knees, and kiss the earth we have denied.in death, we finally lay belly to belly with the mother who birthed us.but maybe, as climate changes,... Continue Reading →
the art of transition
i hunger for depth.i am one to find containers that allow me to come completely undone, to travel outside of the ordinary.sacred ceremony, a session with my therapist, a conversation with chosen kin, a retreat...all offering the potential to be wildly transformational.and yet, in the transition from the depths to the surface, i often drown.there... Continue Reading →
for those looking for love, it can feel like we are waiting to start our lives. a zen teacher once said, "enlightenment is the constant state of orgasm." what does it mean? what are we searching for? it is our nature, as herd animals, to seek for belonging and connection. this is innate, not something... Continue Reading →
find your wing.
The four directions embed inside me like a song stuck in my head that I never want to stop.Feeling them pressing into me, holding me.A ancient sense of belonging once forgotten refound.And as golden wings graze open blue sky,Wind howling in response and celebration,Ecstasy vibrates, pulses through body and memory.A forever knitting happens through me... Continue Reading →
musings on a burning world
The truth is, sometimes I think staying by the ocean is wise because when the world gets sicker, I can swim out into the sea and let her take me. It's a plan that allows me to know I can escape, I can leave, be free. The ocean will envelop me and I will return... Continue Reading →
Grief is the empress of all feeling.For it is she who draws us to depths never known before.She summons us to the warm veil we've lived behind for who knows how long,And secures us in this residing place without knowledge of the next.Grief promises to transform us,For a heart that has broken many times learns... Continue Reading →
tree, tower over me.
I want to stay smaller than the trees.These ancient ancestors that have kept growing beyond what we'll ever see in a lifetime.Resting against its base, the redwood reverberates wisdom of slow, of pause, into my spine, my sacrum.It knows, remembers, through the roots that connect to past generations of its elders.Somehow in human history, we... Continue Reading →
find your activist.
There are many ways to be an activist for human dignity.Being on the front lines, using voice and body to proclaim justice, is one way.Even using our power to destroy, to release ancient anger and grief, is a way.Though it can be called violence, Know that trying to repress these voices and acts is violence,... Continue Reading →