it's taken decades,no, lifetimes,for those with wombs to have the government sign off on their right to sovereignty.as i grew in this world, i couldn't understand the national, platformed obsession with abortion. a cyclical obstacle, a normalized debate, that distracted from ongoing harm to already birthed humans.why is there such an emphasis on protecting those... Continue Reading →
who am i to decide which creation is better than the other?pain drives me to shun that which caused it,to preference that which might have avoided or alleviated it.and yet, the pain itself and all that follows is birthed from the same material of all that is universal.the arising and passing away of thisis from... Continue Reading →
contemplation of a contented life
I’m used to a life answered by silence.A jagged, narrow path that acknowledges death as part of not opposite to.Forgetting and remembering that each intricate life is doused by complexity,No matter how simple it may appear to an outside perceiver.I am learning that the contented moments I have sought for in eternity,Are quietly nestled on... Continue Reading →
an unknown life
sometimes we think that it will be this future point in time,that deserves all of our undivided attention.and try as we might, to consider all of the possibilities of what might happen then,we mostly cannot dream up the fixings of that moment.anticipating the convergence of energy, of something that feels like it might karmically determine... Continue Reading →
river of tears
maybe when the water runs out,we will weep so many tears that the rivers will fill again.maybe after the last tree falls,our hearts will break, we’ll come down to our knees, and kiss the earth we have denied.in death, we finally lay belly to belly with the mother who birthed us.but maybe, as climate changes,... Continue Reading →
the art of transition
i hunger for depth.i am one to find containers that allow me to come completely undone, to travel outside of the ordinary.sacred ceremony, a session with my therapist, a conversation with chosen kin, a retreat...all offering the potential to be wildly transformational.and yet, in the transition from the depths to the surface, i often drown.there... Continue Reading →
why do we stay silent?
it's been awhile since i've written. needless to say, writing is a way for me to empty, to follow curiosity, to explore. so here we are. today, i found myself reconnecting with a friend and past love. and it surprised me as i shared with him that there were pieces in our shared history that... Continue Reading →
we need to do much less than we think. one translation of sati, a Pali word, is mindfulness. another, which feels truer in my own body and experience is:rememberfor those trained by industrialized society to do, to reach, to be productive,this energy can arise in our practice.thinking that is up to us to stop thoughts,... Continue Reading →
for those looking for love, it can feel like we are waiting to start our lives. a zen teacher once said, "enlightenment is the constant state of orgasm." what does it mean? what are we searching for? it is our nature, as herd animals, to seek for belonging and connection. this is innate, not something... Continue Reading →
find your wing.
The four directions embed inside me like a song stuck in my head that I never want to stop.Feeling them pressing into me, holding me.A ancient sense of belonging once forgotten refound.And as golden wings graze open blue sky,Wind howling in response and celebration,Ecstasy vibrates, pulses through body and memory.A forever knitting happens through me... Continue Reading →