I’m used to a life answered by silence.A jagged, narrow path that acknowledges death as part of not opposite to.Forgetting and remembering that each intricate life is doused by complexity,No matter how simple it may appear to an outside perceiver.I am learning that the contented moments I have sought for in eternity,Are quietly nestled on... Continue Reading →
sometimes we think that it will be this future point in time,that deserves all of our undivided attention.and try as we might, to consider all of the possibilities of what might happen then,we mostly cannot dream up the fixings of that moment.anticipating the convergence of energy, of something that feels like it might karmically determine... Continue Reading →
i hunger for depth.i am one to find containers that allow me to come completely undone, to travel outside of the ordinary.sacred ceremony, a session with my therapist, a conversation with chosen kin, a retreat...all offering the potential to be wildly transformational.and yet, in the transition from the depths to the surface, i often drown.there... Continue Reading →
for those looking for love, it can feel like we are waiting to start our lives. a zen teacher once said, "enlightenment is the constant state of orgasm." what does it mean? what are we searching for? it is our nature, as herd animals, to seek for belonging and connection. this is innate, not something... Continue Reading →
As my grandmother continues to transition from form to not,I feel inducted into the perspective of interconnection.Somehow, as I write and remember her,So many beautiful faces surface in mind of living human family.My mother said when her mother died that she became an orphan.But can one ever truly be motherless?We have all traveled here by... Continue Reading →
Today, my 93 year old grandpa is having heart surgery. All of us, including him, are maintaining a positive outlook, one that is hopeful and confident, leaning on the medical staff's expertise that this is, in fact, the right move. And though we are all keeping our eyes on a positive future, we can't deny... Continue Reading →
What does YES feel like in your body? How do you know when you're experiencing joy? As, I wrote in Part II, we are being given cues all along about how to move towards joy on our paths. We are being guided through the wildness into clarity through a love language we're often unaware of.... Continue Reading →
Seeking pleasure is a main ingredient of the human condition. We long for the good feels and when we find them, we do all that we can to keep them going, at whatever the cost. Think of the relationship you stayed in far past its expiration date. The memories of belonging and togetherness and love... Continue Reading →
This morning, I was on Facebook, and noticed myself perusing a couple of my friends' pages, looking at what they've been up to. Now I've come to realize that there are a few, specific friends who I compare myself to. As if everything they do points to everything it is that I'm not doing. And... Continue Reading →
In moments of deep frustration, When my mind and body get agitated and impatient, I notice the thoughts that arise, The thoughts that will lead to my demise. She isn't doing her job right. It's her fault. Says one voice. They didn't design this tool right. It's their fault. Says another. When is this going... Continue Reading →
you are whole, complete, and perfect. 